The worst break-up

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As a girl, we always have this one companion, not necessary our best friend, but can be a close friend, a best buddy in school or at work. You can say anything, everything what’s inside your mind and heart without hesitations, that friend is willing to listen to your clamors, your crushes, vice versa.
You do quarrel a LOT. Petty reasons. It’s a part of your daily routine. You annoy each other like sisters.But, fine again after a few minutes. You’re day is not complete in her absence. You are always in her side, wherever she goes, even on her personal transactions, you are always there beside her, like a shadow. People would even call you “twinnie” and you love it both!
Then one day, everything turns out into NOTHING.
Your smile became frown…
Your laughter became tears…
The sweet messages turns into ordinary…

You tried to divert your feelings, you tried to distance yourself for a while thinking she needed a break from her problems, that your presence would just make things complicated though you tried to help her from the start but for her you are not helping at all, that you are making the situation even WORST.

You don’t know her anymore and no matter how much you try to bring back the time when you both don’t care about the people around you, the pressure brought by them, you both don’t care about the negativity surrounding the two of you because what matters is that you have each other in facing the challenges, the laments of LIFE, she won’t come back from being the person you know. NOT ANYMORE. And then, you’ll ask yourself:

“What have I done? Or haven’t done to make things alright again? To make things to be what it used to be, to bring back our innocence about the world, to hear you giggle with my corny jokes, to see you smile with my unexpected sweet-nothings because I’m not that showy, to feel your hands holding mine saying you are always there for me.”

Yes, she said she will always be there for you but, where is she now? You will begin to question your worth. Are you not for keeps?  She, or maybe you both lost the friendship you’ve founded for years, she left you hanging, and she left you with all the PAIN, BURDEN and questions unanswered. Without further explanations as to HOW and WHY she did it. You don’t know what to do anymore because for you, you’ve done your part it’s up to her to consider holding on. But, because you are too attached to her,
Then, your biggest fear at that time happened.
She finally LEFT…
Not just emotionally but physically away from you.

You let her though the arrow of pain pierces inside you. Of course, you don’t have the right to stop her from doing what she wants, for you are nothing anymore in her life. She wants to be alone, she wants to face life and be with her own, without your shadow, without your never-ending guidance. But before finally leaving (for good), she said goodbye, hugs, tears and messages of both THANK YOU and FAREWELL. You thought everything is fine again, your friendship are into normal again before she leaves. So, you feel somehow happy and relieved.

Days of not being with her really feels something is missing in your system. You communicated with her to say you definitely miss her. To your surprise, she’s getting cold again. She’s different. She made you feel that she found new friends, she’s happy with her newly found friends.

She’s slowly losing contacts with you.
You tried to reach her out again in a social networking sites expressing how much you miss her, how much you value the things she left. She replied “You don’t have to keep everything”.


SHE B-L-O-C-K-E-D YOU.

As if she’s not allowing you to enter in her new life anymore. You feel like you don’t have a sense to her.
Friendship break-up.Probably the worst of all break ups. You’re not just broken, you are SHATTERED.

FRIENDSHIP.


You may not understand the flow of the ideas in this writing. Just like the writer here, she could hardly decipher what’s going on in her life.